why am i here?

i know nearly every human on the planet asks that question. usually its about the exsistance of life on earth and why people are ont he planet, but what i mean is, why am i back in London?

i just don't get it

i love chester, and i wanted it to be my home forever

well it still can be i suppose, but i had it all planned, finish uni, get that job live in chestr and do amazing youth work for 3 years and have my own house!!

well only one of those has come true and i'm not sure how i feel about that.

so obvously it was MY plan not GOD'S plan, so yeah, it would not have worked, but all i'm asking for is some direction as to why London.

Now don't get me wrong, London is AMAZING!!, i do enjoy being here, but im not sure if i want to be here (not sure if you get that ...)

take me back to Chester baby!!

Is Chester too comforatable so i don't want change, has London got something abosoulty amazing for me. just...

why am i here?

answers on a postcard please.

eaiser to lie

i stumbled across this whilst looking for youth work Jobs in london. this is part of the churches website.

take a look

tell me what you think


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGPNZrBOnVM

if your looking for love, Jesus is the answer

had a good day today.

it was Shane and Alli's commisioning service (to find out more visit www.fakerepublic.com . It was wonderful, a few tears shed as this actually feels like the end of an era! not just for them but for all the third year students! life begins now!

some of us went to the park and sat and chatted a while bout women in authority. (i'll leave that for another day!)

the conversation came to an end, when two guys came up to us. one guy said, my friend is looking for love, can we help him. my intial thought was 'no you arse, move or i'll batter you!' but being the good christian that i am said, ''no we can't but, if your looking for love, then jesus is your answer!''

soon as those words left my mouth i knew i was in for trouble, either they would go. 'erm ok see you later bye bye' or 'ok tell me more.' They went for the latter. oh poo!

so there we are God's army, trying to explain the gospel. i did not have a clue as to what i was gonna say. i started off by asking who they thought jesus was. i thought this was a good place to start. they did not really know who he was or what he was about but were certain that he was not for them. he talked about 'mother earth' and being thankful to nature.

it was a strange conversation. i tried to do more listening than talking, but was really keen to tell them everything i know! but that i began to realise was not the answer. it was strange cos we actuatlly agreed on most things but coming from different backgrounds. Theses guys believed in love, so did we, theses guys believed that having stuff in life in pointless but the things you collect over time is love inside of you the most valuable trasure ever! all true. we seemed to go round in circles.

i did not get to talk to the other guy, but the italian guy seemed really interested.

mmmm

he thought he had all the answers. he had travelled the world, seen things and participated in things and therefore knew more. i was not so sure. had enough respect for him, but he was rather arrogant and was not willing to listen to what we had to say.

mmmm

it got me thinking, as chrsitians do we think we have all the answers? is it possible to be a christian plurist?

answers on a postcard please.

wise guy huh?!

so you think you have all the answers well think agian. sometimes christains will just reel off the answer that they have heard a million times, but never actually engage with the question. for example.

Q: why did jesus die?
A: to forgive our sins!

but what does that mean?

to try and explain that to someone who does not understand the christian lingo, its a bad (i think) answer, no matter how true is.

be careful in what you say!

another example.... particullary for those who are already christians, asking this to christians

Q: who is Jesus
A: he is the Son of God.

ok, correct, but again think about what you are saying, what does that mean?

ok thats enough of a rant!

peace

God's Army

i watched a channel four documnetary the other day called God's Army. It was about a college in America that trained Christians in politics and law, hoping they will be part of the White House leading the country. Thier philosophy is 'we are called to be salt and light in the world and where better to be than the head of the country.' George Bush is thier icon, and a great example of Christians in politics.

the way the programme was portrayed was as a cult. A strange bunch of inbred, homeschooled people who want to run the most powerful country in the world! OMG what has the world come to. Chritianity did not come off in a positive light at all!

From a christian perspective, it was strange. i shuffuled uncomfortably in my seat as i heard people saying that the feel god calling them to the white house to be witnesses for Christ. I was shocked to hear that people were actually willing to train people in how to be a christian and a politician at the same time.

but why?

surely this is what i hear people say everyday. Everyone feels that they have a calling, or are persuing that calling, or how to be a christian in whatever situation you find yourself in, what makes this any different?

well the documnetary made you think that these were strange people who are living in thier own world, wanting to force thier views of the world onto to other people, through govenment.

I'm still trying to decide what i thought of the whole thing. part of me thinks it was ok, and that christains should take an interest in politics and world affairs and be effected by them, and wanting to make a difference. but the other side of me screams NNOOO!!! you weirdo christians!! what are you dong?! you can not use the word of god and twist it to say what every you mean. Your playing with fire, and what a dreadful thing it is to fall into the hands of the almighty!

current mood: arrggghhh!!