why am i here?
i know nearly every human on the planet asks that question. usually its about the exsistance of life on earth and why people are ont he planet, but what i mean is, why am i back in London?
i just don't get it
i love chester, and i wanted it to be my home forever
well it still can be i suppose, but i had it all planned, finish uni, get that job live in chestr and do amazing youth work for 3 years and have my own house!!
well only one of those has come true and i'm not sure how i feel about that.
so obvously it was MY plan not GOD'S plan, so yeah, it would not have worked, but all i'm asking for is some direction as to why London.
Now don't get me wrong, London is AMAZING!!, i do enjoy being here, but im not sure if i want to be here (not sure if you get that ...)
take me back to Chester baby!!
Is Chester too comforatable so i don't want change, has London got something abosoulty amazing for me. just...
why am i here?
answers on a postcard please.
posted by dee @ 8:34 PM
4 Comments:
OH Dee, I want you to be back in Chester too, to have the house, youth work job, that will be amazing etc... but like you said just then, it would never have worked out if God didn't want you there. He has an amazing plan for you specifically, and so it's good in a way that He has just closed one door of opportunity, cos He let you by-pass all of the disappointments and rubbish that would have possibly come your way if you had chosen to stay in Chester. Maybe He wants you to get some experience in London, then go back to Chester.
I found that when I went to Northampton Uni, without praying about it much (or at all) that God was just like 'no' don't want you to be here, this place is just not for you, and it took me a whole year, of me digging my heels in to find that out. It was strange because I would say that in a way I was closer to God personally through that year becaue I felt a bit rubbish, I had to rely on Him so much more, and that was a time of growth for me, which I really value. God spoke to me in that year, and I wouldn't swap that for anything.
Coming to Chester would never have happened until all the crap in my life had happened, and I ended up in Chester. It was never in my thoughts. God gave me a desire to go near Wales for some reason, and he provided me with my dream English course where I get to choose loads of the modules and study pretty much everything that I ever wanted to study. Sorry, not trying to preach.
Dee, I know that God has got something AMAZING in store for you. Keep with Him, and he'll show you at the right time. (always at the last possible minute I've found, when we really rely on where&what He wants us to do!)
love u x
hey mads
thanks for that, it is really encouraging to read, and i know youare right.
it just difficult when you can't see the wood for the trees!
but hey, prayer conquers everything, lets get on our knees!
love you
good chat
Hi, Im one of Mads friends from home...
Theres a job i know of going in london at a GREAT church...I know you want to be back in chester but...
Its in peckham which is a fab part of london and lots and lots of lovely uni and post uni age people live in the area (including me!!)
check out http://christchurchpeckham.info
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